Sometimes I feel like I'm the Only One..

"Who feels like goin' nowhere is like giving up"

I'm getting this feeling that like in the next year or year and a half my life is gonna be decided.

Not 100% but like my first real shot at doing something will be comming up.

I don't think Im gonna ever end up poor or really having a shitty life but I think if I apply myself and take the right risks I can avoid the scarest thing in my mind at least, mediocrity.


Ever watch those movies where all these friends from High School get together like 10 years after graduation and they all eventually find out how fucked up everyone is? There's the drunk, the druggie, the one who divorced ten times, the one in the loveless marriage, and the work-a-holic who is cheating on his wife or his wife is cheating on him and his kids hate him?

Yea, I think I'm gonna end up being that last guy...

It's weird I just know I'll never be 100% happy with my status, I'm always gonna want more. I guess that's a good thing? I hope i'm not that guy, I hope I fall in love and get married and my kids will love me, but if i had to pick which one of those sterotypes I'd be, he's my man.